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Hari ni baru mula balik ada rasa semangat nak continue tulis something

in this blog after sekian lama menyepikan diri. Baru teringat actually that

i do have a blog rather than DO i have a BLOG?? orang kata lepas lama x menulis and asyik mendiamkan diri, banyak perubahan dalam diri berjaya diobserve and might be boleh share sedikit sebanyak dengar orang yang sudi membaca. apa2 hal sekalipun tujuan tulis blog ni waktu2 pagi yang sepi and kedinginan angin malam ni dapat la menceritakan tentang2 anjakan paradigma yang da berlaku. so minta maaf kalau ada yang baca rasa macam what kind of bullshit is this or so on sebab mood pagi2 ni rasa macam nak bercerita. :) please bare with me for a while.

Kehidupan di UTP memang sangat2 dibencikan for me after ive stayed here for 3 months. its not like that im not grateful enough for being here. its just that sometimes the system makes u feel like u dont want to comply with it. Not the only reason of the poor management, ive been treating (i used it here as i because not everyone might feel the same as i do) like i dont pay a single cent for study-ing here eventhough that i actually do pay every semester just that i have to return the payment by working and bonded with petronas for a duration of 10 years!

But most of the management and lecturer might not realize about it and keep on saying u all got a scholer from petronas and u dont deserve to say anything. ure being sponsered! who care if i got a sponsorship or not and if they really realized about it, we are talking about money and we have the right on every single money that we pay! lets say worst scenario happens where im not employed by Petronas and i have to pay for the money since its not full scholarship (convertable loan). i still have to pay the money and that means im paying it on my own. but what do i get for paying things that doesnot satisfied me for the money that is spent. Most of UTPian doesnt care much about it. but for me, its a big matter.

second thing is that UTP is such a small campus and the faculty here is only limited to 8 faculties consist of civil, mechanical, electrical, chemical, petroleum, geoscience, Business and Information communication technology. so the number of student is not that much as other university have. if for other universities it is quite accepted for me if they are not managed well enough because of the population is huge. but in UTP, eventhough the population is small compare to other universities, still sadly to say the performance is not up to the standard. i thought that when we deal with smaller number of population it is better and easier to manage rather than have to deal with huge population. and guess what the assumption is totally wrong!

third thing is that the mindset of the people here that like to bother what others people do makes me tired and sick of it. seems busy body to know everysingle thing that we do in daily life. yes i know some people will say that they are being busybody because they concern about us but if im not mistaken now we are big enough to deal with everysingle aspect in this life. if they are too busy body about other people's business then why dont they care about theirselves in the first place. it is not wrong to do that if and only if that we have managed ourself well enough and every single weakness that we hold has been fixed first. then after that if they want to do it, with all due respect please continue with this attitude. No one's going to blame u for helping other people.

hargh! basically that is what i feel and i dont know what other people think about it. i dont quite care on what people thinks about me pon sebab for me sekarang everyone is big enough to think wisely and otak yang dikurniakan kepada setiap insan tu sama. kalau komputer dibina berasaskan otak manusia, kenapa kita x boleh gunakan kepakaran otak yang diberikan untuk berfikir sejenak yang mana elok dan mana tidak. Akal yang bezakan antara manusia dan haiwan. haiwan pun ada otak tapi x mampu berfikir. Manusia pula dikurniakan akal dan fikiran dalam membantu menaikkan ketamadunan dan memperbaiki kehidupan. kalau akal tidak digunakan dan kita tidak berfikir, apa yang membezakan kita dan haiwan?

p/s : kalau kita malas berfikir, lama2 nanti karat and sebab da karat, mula la kita bercakap bende2 yang sungguh membosankan dan x masuk akal. jadi GUNAKAN LAH OTAK KITA :)

MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA!

hari ni. genaplah sudah 52 tahun kemerdekaan kita sambut.
setelah genap beberapa abad negara kita dijajahi oleh empayar british yang rakus
mengaut hasil keuntungan bumi malaysia yang kaya dengan pelbagai khazanah.
apa yang tinggal pada kita, hanyalah secebis laungan kemerdekaan yang acap kali
kita banggakan.
apakah maksud kemerdekaan itu sendiri pada setiap hati dan pengertian anak bangsa melayu,
india dan cina serta kaum2 minority yang lain. masing2 menginap di tanah air tercinta yang tergabung oleh 12 negeri di semenanjung dan 3 negeri di kepulauan borneo.
pembangun serta kemodenan yang dibina hanya tertumpu di bandar2 besar.
sedih mengatakan masih ada kawasan2 yang dimana taraf hidup masih samar2 tidak dimajukan dan kehidupan manusia yang buta huruf agak tidak berubah. kehidupan kebiasaan atawpun rigid masih memonopoli sebilangan besar anak2 petani dan felda disebabkan tidak ditekankan
nilai2 akademik yang amat penting dalam dunia yang mementingkan pelajaran masa kini.
kalau seorang graduan yang memiliki segulung ijazah sudah mempunyai persaingan yang hebat dalam mendapatkan tempat kerja bagi mendapatkan sesuap nasi dan menyara diri, inikan pula apatah lagi anak2 yang hanya mampu menamatkan persekolahan dan tidak mampu membiayai yuran pengajian yang amat tinggi. UITM memang tidak diakui oleh sesiapa pun bahawa itu adalah tempat untuk pengajian kebanyakan (majority) bangsa melayu. tapi taraf pendidikan yang didapati dari UITM sekarang agak susah jika mahu dibandingkan dengan institusi-institusi pengajian tinggi yang lain. mungkin kreadibility institusi UITM ramai yang memperagui kehebatan pelajar2 yang menamatkan pengajian disini. kaum melayu sudah patut untuk memikirkan tentang diri sendiri. harus patut untuk mula mengorak langkah dalam memperjuangkan ekonomi sendiri. kaum cina lama sudah mengorak langkah dalam menempatkan diri mereka menguasai ekonomi malaysia yang semakin pesat membangun. apa yang kita harapkan hanyalah taraf status bumiputra dan keistimewaan orang melayu yang kita ada demi mendapatkan perlindungan diri. kita hanya diajar untuk bertahan dan tidak untuk mahu kedepan. banyak iklan yang dipaparkan di tv masa kini ada mengandungi pengjaran yang kalau kita nilai, kita mampu untuk bergerak ke hadapan. kalau diikutkan, sebenarnya orang melayu mempunyai otak yang pintar dan bijak. jika tidak masakan petronas mampu untuk tersenarai antara top 20 most profitable company in the world for oil and gas? rata2 kebanyakan kaum melayu yang menjadikan impian itu suatu kenyataan di dalam company petronas itu.

dimana ada kemahuan, pasti akan ada jalan yang menyambungkan angan2 menjadi kenyataan.
akhirkata, adakah merdeka yang kita sambut ini yang kita laung-laungkan ini hanya tinggal menjadi kata2 ataw pon menyebabkan kita terus maju kehadapan.

follow up. latest outbreak

current status untuk masa ini : bersenang lenang.

keadaan semasa : incubation period.

healing period : mengharap dan menanti.

:)

H1n1 memang cibai

One word for u swine flu or influenza A H1N1!

u sucks!

shit dan gampang betul!
sebab ko. aku kene quarantine!
fucker.

terima kasih H1N1!

Urban Scape 2009

this year's urbanscape
what i can say
is happening and fun
every entertainment is there
from acoustic performance,
live band performance, club in open air
street performance, art shows, screening
to the market place.
what i can say is that it was tip top and
fun!

I got a chance to be a volunteer in this event
and i was in charge of the shuttle bus.
where they called as a shuttle bus minder.
want to know what do we do in this job scope?
here's the elaboration:

1) greet people from the check point and direct them into the
service bus provided by the event manager
=
*getting a new connection with hot chicks who wants to go there*!
(thanks lord for these girls) :D

2) make sure the bus leaves on time at every destination
=
less job to do and have more time to go around

3) make sure every body feels calm and relaxed through out the journey
=
just give them aircond and they'll shut up their mouth

so basically that's what we did in this event
and yes we did that.
people tend to walk inside from the main entrance rather than using the
free service bus provided for them since because
the traffic was very-very congested
due to the number of cars entering the parking event.
so what does it mean?
it means that literally i had the chanced to walk around
with the so called new chinese "girl friend"
that i actually met this morning during the briefing session.
thank you klpac for providing less parking
and letting me having a company to walk around.
he he he :P

the bands performance was two thumbs up.
i learn a new thing for performing as a singer.
using the big microphone = haller
is that how we spell it??
in performance just right in front of the microphone
can give a very different effect towards our voice that came out from the
speaker.
our voice will be more condensed and thicker than before.
its like adding effect towards the guitar playing by increasing the gain volume
*ala serak2 basah la*
pop shuvit did the best performance today'
and they were jamming MJ' song - smooth criminal
and not performing since they never played that song before
and suddenly they feels like want to play it.
good and great actually.
spontaneous performance.

whatever it is, next thing to consider is to get the scuba diving license!
that's a must!
until next time!

:)

Bryan Adams

"Please forgive me, I know not what I do

Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you" 

this song kinda expressing all his feeling.

a bit mushy and full of love thing.

a singer sings to express his feeling

same like other normal human being

who's trying to express their natural feeling

such as

1) love

2) anger

3) depressed 

4) happy

etc.

 because there are lots of genre that we could

select according to the type that we love.

selection of music should not be

argued since because it is what 

that our soul and heart wants to hear.

what ever suits and blends into our ears

it is the one that makes our heart feel relieves 

when we hear it.

:)

BLooMing

" semakin lama kita duduk dalam satu kawasan tu
semakin kita rasa selesa
dan sememangnya itu sangat tidak bagus
dalam memperbaiki dan mengatasi
kelemahan diri "

hidup ni ibarat roda.
kadang kala kita ada di atas dan akan sampai masanya
bila kita harus duduk di bawah.
selalu bila kita duduk di bahagian atas, kita acapkali hanyut dibuai
dengan segala rasa dan nikmat kehidupan
sampaikan kadangkala kita lupa apa tujuan kita
dan matlamat hidup yang nyata.
ye la bila kita dilimpahkan dengan
segala jenis nikmat yang buatkan kita rasa bahagia
ada ke masanya kita nak ingat dekat orang lain yang
mungkin pada masa itu
sedang rasa bingung mahupun canggung dengan
masalah yang menimpa pada kehidupan diri mereka.

" kita rasa kita yang paling benar dan juga kita yang paling bagus "

percaya ataw tidak,
sememangnya kita ni manusia yang hina.
tipu untuk dikatakan kalau tak wujud pun sedikit perasaan
tu dalam diri manusia.
agak hipokrit kalau nak dikatakan kita ni manusia yang
mempunyai sifat rendah diri
or the term that we always know is
down to earth person.
hanya seseorang yang ku kenali memiliki sikap itu dan
tetapi dia telah lama meninggalkan kita
semua sehingga sampai waktu ajalnya
bukan harta mahupun keluarga yang diingati
tetapi umatnya sendiri.
itulah sikap dan peribadi seseorang yang patut kita contohi
dan dijadikan idola remaja-remaja masa kini.

" ni kai men, tian nar "

ni adalah chinese proverb yang bermaksud :
when u open up your door, u'll see mountain in front of u.

terpulang la kepada manusia itu untuk interpreate maksud proverb tu sendiri.
bagi diriku, dan pemahamanku
apa yang cuba ingin disampaikan bermaksud
bila kita bersikap terbuka dan melihat sesuatu tu dari sudut yang berbeza dan
terbuka pasti kita akan sedar
bahawa banyak benda yang mampu kita pelajari dan terokai
di dalam apa yang kita lihat tu.

sometimes, we are too scared to try something new,
and hey. why is that happen to certain people is
simply because we have been in our own
comfort zone for too long until it became our
second home and makes us feel safe there.

its not good because for me
once we are in that situation we are going to miss a lot of things in this world
that can make our eyes open widely.
we'll start to miss great opportunity that we are able to
seek in life that will makes our life merrier.

ku juga pernah berada dalam comfort zone itu buat suatu masa yang lama.
sejujurnya da hampir dua tahun aku tak melakukan sesuatu yang
berlainan.
dulu rasa malas dan selesa tu terlalu tebal hinggap di dalam diri
sehinggakan membuat aku hampir kurang keyakinan untuk
deal dengan life yang sungguh mencabar dan mengasyikkan ini.

tapi for the time being, im grateful enough that once again
im not inside that comfort zone anymore.
this hols has made me think a lot especially
before im off to slumberlan a.k.a sleep.
due to the emptiness that i felt in this life has
made my mind generates more ideas and something
that i really want to try in my life.

" u'll never know what u're capable of until u try it yourself "

ya ku ingin melakukan sesuatu yang berbeza untuk hidup ku
sepanjang cuti yang aku ada ini.
kerana nanti cuti pada bulan 12 ni aku akan mula busy dengan industrial training
selama 6 bulan or 7 bulan.
jadi aku tidak akan dapat melakukan perkara-perkara yang
dapat menarik minat ku ke arah sesuatu yang baru

apa yang aku mahukan dalam hidup ini
adalah sesuatu yang berbeza dan mencabar.
ku hanya ingin keceriaan dan pengalaman hidup
yang baru agar dapat dijadikan cerita buat santapan
anak cucu di kemudian hari.

sehingga ke post yang akan datang, buat masa sekarang aku ingin melakukan
research sendiri tentang pengalaman baru yang bakal aku timba.
apabila sudah selesai akan dipaparkan segala gambar dan diceritakan
pengalaman baru yang agak mengasyikkan ini nanti.

sehingga tiba hari itu.. diharap dapat bersabar :)

warms regard ~ :)